So, you remember how I said I was developing a thing for the Director? Yeah it's totally a thing. At least, I think it's a thing. I don't know, I.... let me talk about what happened today.
Back in the caves under Whittier, Graback had called the Director "Brynhildr". I may not be strong on Norse myth, but even I know that name. She's the head of the Valkyries! So, I read a little more of those legends when I got back to MIST (not a lot, mind you, I didn't want to seem like a creeper) and she had a pretty rough time of things. Betrayal. Heartache. It's kindof a mess.
So, today it was nice and hot and the island MIST is situated on in this... Terra Incognito... err Incognita (I need to get better at this stuff) is surrounded by this amazing ocean. So, I gathered up some beach stuff and some clam-digging gear and went to the beach.
When I got there, I saw a bunch of the Valkyries playing volley ball (and damn to they look good). I recognized a few from Whittier and waved hello. I then heard Brynhildr's voice coming from a cabana. So, I decided to check in on her. She was still working. Reading files and that sort of thing.
She greeted me and I sat down to talk with her. She kept calling me "Ms. Fisher" the whole time. Insisting she called me by my first name didn't work. I tried talking to her about who she was. I wanted to know more about her. Stuff that the legends don't say. I didn't get very far, she's a very closed off person. I suggested she let her hair down and blow off some steam, by joining me for some clam diving. She gave me a look and I bet I turned beet red when I realized the innuendo I made.
Fortunately, that cracked the ice a bit. Apparently I'm not the only one of our little band to make a pass at her (OMG! WHO!?). Then the conversation turned to Fate. She told me how it can force you to do things you'd never do or loose your free will because a story would be better a certain way. It really scared me. However, she spoke like it was personal experience, like the events in her legend weren't of her own will. I wanted to understand more about why she was so closed off, so I asked about it. It may have been too much too soon. I could tell it was painful to talk about and I changed the subject.
I didn't change it fast enough. I made a comment about learning more about mythology and I got a good dressing down for my behavior while on the Alaska mission. That kinda hurt. I plead my case with her, explaining how I just... get into the moment and don't think ahead, and how I wish I was strong and unphazable like her.
Maybe I got through to Bryn. I don't know. She took me out of the office and we walked down the beach, out of earshot of the other Valkyries. She gave me a little talk that made me feel better. She explained my actions were because I'm young and I can't be blamed for that. She also told me to "Balance valor with caution and not only will [I] be able to meet all the challenges before [me], but [I] will enrich [my] legend, and [myself] far better than simply headlong dives to whatever comes [my] way."
That made me feel a lot better, and hey, I got her to laugh when I mentioned getting taken out by Ives, the Wendigo. We talked a little longer, mostly about how the men in her pantheon don't think women can make "proper warriors". That's a rant for another day. So, I left after that, and now I'm here.
I really like Brynhildr. She's got a lot to offer and she... she seems so cold sometimes, like she's still grieving over events that happened so long ago. There's a lot to like and I hope she finds things to like in me...
And this is where I get confused: I also like Claire.
Claire is fun and funny and just a delight to be around. I've got a date with her this week and I'm scared I'll really start liking her, too.
I'm going to call my mom after the date and ask her about this. I mean, I've been in non-exclusive dating relationships before, but I didn't feel this way about any of them.
Maybe I'm thinking too much about this. I mean, the date with Claire may end with us just as friends....
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